Last Night

Last night I was laying bed with my computer picking out a new lunch box for A and thinking about what I was going to write for the two blog posts that are due this week for another website and then this happened.

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WIWMK2K BBA little smile from around the corner with a little giggle as to know that I had already put him to bed three times before but this time was different. “What cha doing Mommy?” said that adorable little voice. “I am getting ready for bed what are you doing out of bed?” I said in a not stern voice at all.

Then it happened “I want to snuggle with you Mommy.” He knows that gets me every time and he knows just how to say it too. My to do list is taller than this 3 year old but I did not yell I let him get into bed. He usually follows the rules and even when he breaks them he does it in the most impossibly cute ways. Yup I am wrapped around his finger… at least last night.

I let him lay down in bed next to me and I kinda ignored him a little thinking he would naturally go back to bed (as he does sometimes). He snuggled up next to my leg with his head on my pillow while I thought about typing on my laptop at the other end of the bed. He was right up against me just looking at the ceiling, in the way only he can do, like there is some magical show up there that I cannot see.

He finally realized I was not finishing up and joining in him at the invisible star gazing so he gets up and lays down next to me with his head in his hands and says “What cha doing Mommy? Is that unicorn?” In fact he was correct I was shopping for A’s new lunch box. He then tries to type and I realized at that point I was done doing what I was doing.

So we laid down and snuggled for a few minutes but as only I can do at those relaxing moments I realized I had to go to the bathroom. So I told him to stay there and I would be right back. I was five steps off the stairs when he got to the top of the stairs and let out this sad and scared cry “Mommy come back, where you going, come back.” By the time I could get back to the stairs he was more than halfway down with tears welled up in his eyes.

I told him “Mommy is going potty before she goes to bed do you want to come with me.” So he joins me and we discuss the fact that it is probably better he sleeps in his bed in his room with his sister so she will not be lonely. After analyzing the letters in his sisters name on the stool in the bathroom for a while he agrees. I lift him into bed, give him a huge kiss, and tuck him in under the blankets and I think he falls right to sleep.

Boom Boom I think you know I am talking about you!!

Lessons to learn

  • No matter how long the to-do-list sometimes we need to slow down and do nothing
  • No matter how much Mommy wants to pee alone it never happens when a child is awake
  • No matter how tired a kid is if they have not had enough snuggles with their mom they just are not going to go to sleep yet!


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The World Through Harpua’s Eyes

harpua+fun 058Our puppy is not really a puppy anymore. The last time he went to the vet she referred to him as a senior dog. I was crushed but she was right.

Every night at about 4:00am he wakes us and goes downstairs and does his usually cry like there is a bird in his belly to go outside. He barks at nothing, and I tell him to be quiet because the rest of the world is asleep. He comes back in and goes to the same exact spot and sits down and waits for his cookie. I stumble back upstairs and go back to sleep for an hour and half before I get up to go to work.

He slowly climbs back up the stairs and climbs up on the bed, comes to my pillow and puts his nose on the sheet so I will lift it up for him to get under the covers. He never learned he was not a human, he wants to sleep just like us.

Harpua 2He stays in bed till you are all up and almost dressed then he comes downstairs goes out side again and then gets sad we are about to leave. He goes on to the stairs as we get ready to leave and I give him his favorite cookie and we leave.

He sleeps all day, barks at the mailman and other that walk by, and goes on a walk with his favorite dog walker of his whole life. He waits for us to come home.

After he hears us in the driveway he wakes up and comes down the two flights of stairs to meet us at the door. He is so excited to see us when we get home it is really hard for him to sit still but he tries because he has learned in the last 9 years I will not pay attention to him till he is sitting.

IMG_1746He follows me around the rest of the night and at 7:30 pm every night barks and cry for no reason at all or maybe it because I am reading you both your books and getting you ready for bed. Maybe he is jealous he does not have jammies to put on and books for me to read.

After you go to bed EVERY night he comes and lays down next to me and stays with me till I go to bed and then goes to bed with me.

Someday, probably not as far away as I would like, he is not going to be able to make the two flights of stairs up to my room. I try not to think about what a day would be like without him but as he gets older I know it will happen. I hope he lives long enough for you both to remember him.


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Just Call Me Pam #nablopomo

I have to tell you kids I thought long and hard about your names because I do not like mine at all. I actually asked Grandma and Grandpa several times to get me no gifts for my birthday or Christmas just change my name.

As you know I am not just Mommy people call me Leigh. It is spelled more than one way, pronounced wrong about 85% of the time, and often associated as a males name.

When I was a kid I had a cute little pixie cut so when people heard my name they assumed I was a boy. As an adult I am referred to as Mr in emails and on phone calls. It may not seem like a big deal because your names and gender specific and not confusing but it is a pain and annoying over the course of your life.

You are probably saying how could people pronounce it wrong? Well people call me “Leah” or “sleigh” with a silent S and more often than you think “le-get” or “leg”.

Now how about when I tell people my name for them to write down… Lee 98% of the time. If it does not matter I do not correct them who cares at this point I am just as much a Lee as I am a Leigh. The picture above is the ONLY time anyone at Starbucks has written my name properly on a cup! I know this is problem that afflicts many.

Oh and the awkward middle school days were fun when my fellow classmates teased me if I married my classmate I would be Leigh Lee. It was kinda funny and still a step up from my super complicated maiden name (maybe yet another reason why a complicated first name was unnecessary)

So what did I want to change my name to… Pam! Thank God Grandma and Grandpa never got me that present of a legal name change as an adult I much prefer my name Leigh and it is who I am!

So if at any point you are jealous you have a gender specific commonly spelled name remember my story and try not to be to mad, I did it because I love you!

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My Favorite Places To Write #nablopomo

If you asked me when I was younger if I would be a writer or even enjoy writing I would have screamed no way. I kept a journal on and off as a kid and always enjoyed writing but somehow I did not realize it.

Now as an adult I enjoy writing in my free time. I write basically when I am alone. I sit down after my kids go to bed. I either sit down at my desktop computer in my home office/guest room or with laptop in the living room no where else. I seem to have a very set routine.

I often write with the TV on, there is something relaxing about that. I have a hard time writing in complete silence. Sometimes I am inspired by something on tv other times I feel like it is the constant multitasker in me that wants to write and watch my favorite shows.

I also write on my commute. I write on my phone. I actually am writing this post on my phone. I dislike writing this way but I have a great big chunk of time on the train that I have been misusing by playing endless rounds of Candy Crush so I am trying to get back into the habit of writing more.

When traveling I write the absolute most… I can write five or six posts on an airplane ride easily. I can plan my blog calendar for a month or two and brainstorm tons of topics.

Ideally I would love to have my desktop computer in my master bedroom with my sewing machine and tv with my Apple TV then I really would have all my hobbies and distractions in one place.

Where do you like to write?

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My Favorite Character Ever!

lost-characters-jackIt is hard for me to decide who my favorite character is because so many come to mind. Many of the characters that make my top ten list are the characters in the tv show Lost. Together the characters interactions with one another kept them interesting. Here is a list of my favorite and little bit about their character.

Jack: He is a fatality flawed character but those flaws make you follow him and root for him. From the moment he opened his eyes to the moment he closed them he made one wrong decision after another with the complete faith and intention he was doing what he had to do. His motives were almost always for the safety of others if not motivated by love. What better reason to make decisions?

Sawyer: He was never quite what you expected when you first met him, you knew you wanted to hate him for his teasing but then we saw that he did it out of his own insecurity and not out of true malicious intentions. His capacity to love is one that was surprising as he seemed to have such a cold exterior. In the end he always made the right decisions even if he path to get there was the unexpected one.

Hurley: Everyone needs someone like him in their life. He had bad luck follow him all around yet he always had a good spirit and fun outlook. He also had a way of calling people out without making them feel bad, a trait that most people you meet in life do not have.

Kate: She was more like Wonder Women than people would give her credit for I think. She had a strong will and a strong character. She was willing to go farther than any average person would for what she believed in. Running through the jungle on many occasion when other people would not she was by far the bravest character on the show.

Jacob/: Two characters that were created to personify good and evil and call out humanity on all the things that we are doing wrong and the things we are doing it right. There were times when Jacob would talk about humanity with such contempt but you could not help but agree with his points. There were other times when his brother would talk about the good in the world and you could not help but agree that we deserved to be saved.

Desmond: Motivated 100% by love. Nothing could stop him from getting back to his love. Every decision he made was guided, informed and calculated by love. He is a partner we all want to have… Stopping at nothing to get back to you

Ben: Most people who watched the show might say he is the most interesting but I would disagree. He was motived entirely by fear and revenge. He would sacrifice everything to get what he wanted and his calculating moves were important to the story but did not make him an interesting character.

Sayid: Characters with torturred pasts are common in all stories but his is one that is portrayed and played out in a modern society we have not seen before exactly like this. He can be savage of he needs to be and caring at other times. He is left as an outcast for early part of the story because of his ethnicity and has to fight back from that perception. But if I was on spooky desert island and I could only have one character with me it would be him.

Locke: I started with my favorite and I am ending with my other favorite… Locke was an amazing character. He has absolute and total blind faith. At times that faith made him seem visionary and almost prophetic and at other times it lead him to embarrassment and downright misery. While he clearly suffered from some serious depression at times he still did not lose faith in what was right. We should all be a little more faithful in making the right decision than we are… Sometimes it won’t work out but your motivations will always be pure and that is just as valuable.

I could go on with Sun, Jin, and Boone but you should watch the show to form your own opinion.

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